the past, the present, the future

Now i've realised that i have not gotten over Eileen but seeing her so happy and blessful with Elson, i can put my mind at ease. He will take good care of her. How i wish it's me that's in the picture. Havin such a nice birthday party and holiday. Take care alright girl. Colette, you're also another nice girl that is enjoying life now, you got to know new friends and i hope benny will take care of you. Seeing you smiling and laughin so happily makes me smile unknowninly too. I can put my mind at ease that you will not be happy already. I feel that i am an experience for you girls, after me, you girls seems to hit off nicely with your next guy. Claps! for you girls! i don't like it but in life, we can't expect too much. Just let it go and be happy. I'll change to be a better person, the next girl that's goin to come in to my life will be totally different as to how i treat you 2, it will be better. i hope i wont give another bad experience.

Eileen,Colette. Be happy alright, You girls got great guys beside you. Cherish them!

time to move on and get my life back.

it's been months since we seperated. i can see your life now is getting better and better,thats very good. you've known a few guys. i hope they can take care of you and keep you safe,i can see you alrdy forgotten about danny, as well as me. i'm always waiting for your sms or reply but i always wait for nothing. it's time i put things down and move on, but can i do it? the feeling keeps comin back. i tried hard to push it away, i deleted your number, i deleted your facebook, but it still comes back. what did i do to deserve all this!! i wanna be with you , yet on the other hand, i also doesn't want.i'm confused and hurt. Seein you together with other guys, i can;t help but feel hurt and painful. you started drinkin and stuffs, this isn't the you i know in the beginning, i hope it's all ain't a disguise to begin with.i don't wanna irritate you with my senseless smses or calls, i'm tryin to stop. but i keep doin it still. i have now deleted your number and all your smses,i pray it won't come back again, please, let me live my life NOW! oh damned feelings, please go and leave me alone! i don't deserve all this!! i have wonderful friends around me that supports me.i don't need you at all!argh!it's just so stupid of me to still want you back even if it seems impossible.just, BE GONE!

i'm buying my bowling ball somewhere this week, taking up this sport to keep myself occupied..kinda hooked to bowlin now, i'll show you i can bowl.

btw, i got my 1st burberry wallet last week.nicenice=)