cool! ! ! !

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Yst was workin at Pines Country Club, got function. is a CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh Convent)
All GIRLS! and some are so pretty. kinda regretting why i did not take her number !! hais!! she was the only girl i had my eyes on the WHOLE evenin, even wen rui says so hor=X i T_T.. wei she mo i nv go ask for her number, even the manager say le, why nv go take her number!! if i have a chance now, i sure go take, but how T_T.

will i see you again? >.<
lol. ;X

hais, girl, let me find u ! =X

L.I.F.E!

Waiting And Waiting . . . im still waiting for that day to come!.

hmmx, yst went to celebrate ma fren's birthday at sentosa! keke saw many chio bu arh! but too bad, dare not go take number. haa, after sentosa, when to paradiz center to play lan. woo! Anti-Mage Rox!, own every1 muahahha!..

was home at 3.45am +.+"

today..

mornin cannot wake up to go to my auntie's restaurant, so when at 12.10pm.. took a cab and rush down. tiring! den im the only waiter there -_- what is this man!

hate it hate it hate it! F5!

now im home ^^
gonna sleep soon, tml 8.30am class =.=!

Im Waiting for that day to come! i miss you. do you know that? xiang ni.

VvoOmm!

Celebrated friend birthday at east coast. so fun! was BBQing, cmi la the bbq.. hahax. saw some pretty girls also =) den after bbq when to ride bike, was riding the whole night hahax= from ecp ride to bedok jetty 1st. nice place to bring ur loved ones there. very nice>.< den after tt when to changi village. fucking long journey from bedok jetty to changi village, needa cross the runway -.- Changi Airport -.- .. saw planes landing and taking off, the scene was so nice. saw a SQ mega top taking off beside me. was stunned! the sound of the engines! the plane look so bright at night. what a scene! wont ever forget!

the sound of the engine blowing was almost deaf! the whole freakin runway is about 6km! from 1 end to the other and we ride through there to go to SAF ferry terminal! after beside tt is changi village le, tired! but fun! my Subaru won every1 when goin to changi village, but when comin back it become tutu car -.- damn .=)

what a day to relax and make me not think of anything! =)

btw Rain! wan go malaysia at the end of the year hur? okie on! but u nt my type de , lol sorry i no money feed u ar>.< so high class de.. sad! =X hahax

later FRANCE WILL WIN! WAHAHHAX gogo France!...

France to win!

what a day.

cool, mornin woke up at 9.45am and rush to sch for my 10.30am class ^^ reached jus in time keke. and studystudystudy. den after school when to town to catch a movie, we wanted to catch a 4+ movie, but was told the 1st row onli, so we watched the 6.45pm show. onli 5ppl remained. the rest go home liao T_T the show is *Recycle*

a horror story.

kinda scary but im lost of the feeling called FEAR. since 07/08/05... i feel nthin already. >.< no kick. but the show has a very very touching and sad part. tt make me wanna CRY =).

Parents are the best ever human being u can have in ur life. dont ask for anything more. treasure them for they may leave the next minute. at tt moment, i so so so miss my mum and dad and my sis sososo much. how i can hug them and say i love u dad/mum/sis. =)

dangdangdangdang.. cherish them before it is too late. i made a mistake once and i do not wish for it to repeat. =) i've grown thx to you and now seeing you have a boyfriend.. im feeling happy for you my friend =)
no1 knows the future, no point guessing. jus go on with life as we use to be and be HAPPY!..

Once together, Not forgetten. MEMORIES .....

the day that came.

finally heard u have a bf, and it is HIM!. cool! good luck to u guys =). i've grown up , so its the different me u all will be seeing again! =)

i rather stay single! why give up the whole forest just for a tree when we are still young! =0

i jus known another ESTHER. calls her rainrain!=) whata a cutie pie she is. kekex get well soon my fren yea!.. study hard for O lvl! lol

and my darling cheryl mei ar, bu yao xiang tai tuo le, u got jere(my bro!) there for you de! smiles u guys will be happy! whahax!

good luck ... =(

..

When to marina jus now with my ah mei arh! =) so long didnt see her, finally get to see her. cool. when to ritz calton but dare not go in -.-" dont know got what high event goin on, all the managers waiting for some1 to come, scary hahax. den when to marina walk walk, cool, saw a designer shop, so nice the lamps , furniture. =)

goin back there again someday, wanna get some clothes also, IP ZONE@ Marina =)

now study for exam ba, no mood go in relationships again. bored. tired. just study and get on with my life better. =) adios

i dont hate or blame anybody, smile, every1 is equal in my stand. i dont hate ppl even if they say me, what for. we onli have 1 life, live it to the fullest. =) i can forgive everything, can u?

hm..
who is carm and chem? same ppl i suppose? you love to scold ppl hur? why dont search urself before scoldin ppl? does this concern you? i dont think so. if not why kp so much? you dare not reveal urself yet u behind kpkb, scare? i suppose. if u dare to scold, pls dare to admit, scadi cat. yawn.

talk so much yet dare not reveal urself, if u dare not reveal pls dont write, a disgrace to the person who is writing. im suppose to be condemned? yea maybe, but this is because some1 said SUPER many retard things bout me when i didnt do it -.-? reveal urself if u wan to continue to write. no problem revealing urself. unless u are afraid? =) afraid if so , pls do not write, dirtying the place.
and and ohoh, jus to say u guys are busybody. who are you to question about my problems? unless u are esther. busybodies hur. talk all u wan, i dont care anyway. i know what im doin and how life is goin to be for me in the future. im not so like u retards, come nag at the tagboard, yawn..

get a life ppl. =)

-_-||

so many ppl scold me, aiya, all ended le la, scold la scold la. wan condemn me go condemn la. now i single le la, happy rite. 6more months onli,REN. Seen my blog? go ahead lor. i am sure i nv contact her already. you said i lie to you, i onli know i met her when we were not together, and when u ask, i said nv meet le, and i realli nv meet. believe or not up to u ba.

ysterday you went to watch movie, i didnt wanna disturb u. my fault. suddenly u didnt reply me, my fault. i cant go out this few weeks, so many problems now. how to go out u tell me, haix. family problems dying hai.

you wanna end it? den end lor, what can i do. everybody's condemnin me.

tagboard so many ppl scold me. long over le still got scolded, scold lor. i dont care,

yawn..

got girl no girl still same. school, home.

6more months, let me pass!

esther, i dont know what the hell i did, i didnt betray u, i love you and i always treated you like a gf. but nvm now, its over. sad? yea, sad. but what to do? everybody is blamin me for everything. den blame lor.

Woo~

OVER LA..

nana whoever u are, u can scold me , i dont mind, but please respect me. thx. tell me ur name before u do anything yea. anyway im fine now already. life's back to normal, pearlin? nahz, she is just another girl whom is in the past already. she is making fun of me now, what for? at least i have esther. =)

And moreever, she deleted me from her blog. so its over i guess. girls are easy to change man. its onli whether you know how to treasure them. i've learnt alot from pearlin. i've grown. =) say me useless or whatever, i dont care. cause u are not me =). the old me is dead.

maybe its thanks to pearlin tt i grow, THANK YOU PEARLIN!. wish u good luck with him, and oh! sry, he said only friends? tt's sad. dont sad ya. there are still many other boys outside =)

u can forget me easily, so can i. wooo~.~

and whoever like to see my blog, see more =) cause this blog is goin to end soon. curse me more , bam me more!. woo! =)

LIFE?

Waiting And Waiting . . .?
I've Waited until im DRY already. haix.
its time to let go already ya.
i must move on with life.
no more hope between us already.
I Give Up.

I rather be single or be with esther already. At least i know there is still some1 that love me.

but now, i guess single is the only choice already. SAD.

i dont know what girls are thinking, when the chance is there to take already, i've took it and suddenly everything goes missing. she is gone, decided to treat me like mirror again. and i dont know what the HELL is happenin to my class. it seems like ppl are condemning me. FUCK what did i do? Why must they care about my problem? WHY.

Why cant they just care about their own problem?

8 more months and im gone from this class, bad experience. haix. im looking forward to get my ass out of here. SHATEC? bad choice already. sob

Yu ting, if you see this, the chance has come and gone, we may have a future in the future, we may not. but you are letting me wait too long and you are not caring or bothering about me at all. sad? i suppose. i dont deserve all this anyway. get on with ur life and go get ur WPL. if possible, stop contactin me already cause i will stop contacting you. i must! you have get on with ur life, i must to!

Life just suck, will you come back to me once again please? T_T

yawn..

Waiting And Waiting . . .

I Think its time i give up ba, you are already waiting for WPL, there is no point for me to wait knowing i have no chance.

haix. its time its time. i know i will regret it, but there is nothing i can do anymore. The hope has come and gone already. you are not letting me have the chance and WPL is more important then me now. good luck with him ba. In the 1st place, i shld not have let you come into my life again when we are over. stupid me hur.

ok thats it..

im sick today, thats stupid. can't go to school
needa see doc . got fever, flu,sore throat. crazy hur. but nvm still, a day to get me cool down and relax. getting back all my sleepiness ^^

tml needa go back school le, it sux. >.<

hai, will i regret what i will be doing? hope i wont haix

yawn..

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Waiting And Waiting . . .

No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life was still you, and everything was how it used be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it doesn't. Although we have been apart for a while, and now have diferent loves in our life, I still can't help wondering how your life is, and when I catch you glancing at me, I can't help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when I see you.

so sad. feelings passing through my brain, surrounding it, making it addicted to you again. I wanna have another future with you ting. But i don't know if that is possible anymore. I really hope it is possible. I've changed just to be with you again. Lao Mu, please give me another chance, wo hui hao hao zhen xi de.

I dont know what you are thinkin now, but i hope you are considering having another fresh with me, i hope that is possible. Asking me to give up is like askin me to take a knife and kill myself. i can't do it cause i love you, i wanna let you see the NEW me.

i hope i can be with you again yuting.

i love you =(

Another Chance Available?

Waiting And Waiting . . .

is there another chance available for us? i hope there is. give me another chance to allow us to be happy together again.

YuTing, i'm happy i can meet you on friday. I'm really happy. Please allow me to be able to make you happy again. I know it's difficult, but please give me another chance. I promise you that you will be happy again. I wanna be there for you, i wanna share your problems. Pearlin, let us get back together again ke yi mahz?

I'm very excited that i can see you on Friday.

I won't be like the olden days already. I've grown up and i know what to do already. I wanna call you *DEAR* again, i wanna hug you again, i wanna be by your side again. If you ever look into this blog, give it a thought.

I know its hard for us to be together, you may not have any feelings for me already, but i don't wanna give up, i'll try to make feelings between us stronger. i just need you to agree to it. i don't want to miss this chance.

God created this chance for me again, i'll try my fullest to treasure it. Ting, please give me another chance, Im sorry for the past, but let me be the one to make you happy again.

I Love you.

clueless

Is it better to be single? guess so hur.

so many problems started to come.
tiring already
let me off pls!

Yuting, i wanna be with you again, give me another chance ya? i'll wait for the day to come. Don't leave me alone T_T. If the chance for us to be together again is ruined, why must god arrange for us to meet on that day? Why is god making it look like there is a chance for us to be together again, but it is actually not? As long as there is still feelings, i'll wait for the day to come. I don't wanna give up and i won't. Unless you tell me you have no more feelings for me, then will i give up. I have no choice. 9 months already, you came back into my life once again, i know there is still a chance, give both of us a chance again?
Possible?
I know it is possible, put hope in it ting.
I've changed, I'm different already, i've corrected all my mistakes. Give me another chance please!
Wo Fang Bu Xia , Ni Ming Bai Mah !!

Esther, i'm sorry. I'm trying to forget her but i just can't. Sorry. I rather be single. i'm sure you will get a better guy out there. You may hate me for doing this but i think this is the best solution for both of us. Sorry.




Well for school life, it is fun, good service skills i've learned. Im aiming to be in the tourism line. Manager- To - Be !! in the tourism industry! =)



YuTing, I'm waiting for you to come back to me once again.

life .. . .

jus get my nafa letter. it is unsuccessful haix. so now, i am left with shatec. i hope i can get in and to be able to pursue my tourism course still. haix..

why must life be so hard for me.. all i wan is jus for me to be able to study.. i dont wanna go in to NS so soon. i still miss the outside world. im still not prepared haix.. WHY MUST GOD MAKE SUCH A HARDTIME FOR ME.. WHY CANT HE JUST LET ME GET INTO MY INTEREST COURSE.. WHY!. im screwed!

all people now are enjoying their life. why? cause their studies are already planned.. all done nicely. but for me? it's screwed.. haix

life is nv easy, but cant it there be at least a light shown to me and tell me the way?

im so lost, im so scare. this is the 1st time im scare .. i have no place to study.. seeing ppl goin in to jc , poly. im so happi for them.

i know i studied hard for my O's. but i still didnt do well.. its badly done .. haix

i regret goin sec5, i shld have gone to ite sooner and i could be well on my way to poly le. haix. i am so stupid!

but there is nothin i can do now. all i can do is to soak in the world of misery for me. haix..

i wanna retake my Os. but i cant do it private. i cant defer off.. it is not allowed. life is so unfair.
haix. why cant the government jus change a little small rule tt it can be defered. im so lost.

any1 help? T_T

why am i born into this world after all. it is onli for us to suffer hardship and not much of happiness. the world changes , so do us. the old dies and the young turns old. what for? all jus for the sake of living. life is full of crapz! do well and be rewarded, do badly and be kicked. life is nv fair!

i hate myself!

31/03/06

the day where shaun is gone from this world.

dadada

Long time no write.. hm.. cause lol.. busy with work la.. so no time la.. hahax. also not much ppl see mahz.. dot .. ok la now no work le can rest le ^^ .results also comin out le.. wth.. so scary.. wan me die ar.. wan me die also not so early mahz
i haven xiang shou life le.. sob wan me leave world so early.. -.-"

lazy write la.. SONG RULES.. SEX IS NOT THE END!!! TECHNO!

taiwan =)

jus came back from taiwan.. 8 days passes so fast. hai. time flies. i miss taiwan, i miss my jies. Especially Wang Qi and Wang hwa. hais. i miss them Sob... T.T

onthe 9th of december, went to taiwan. but plane DELAYED! due to some faulty engines. so not safe to fly. flight changed to next day on the 10th december at 6.30am! so we have a free night at traders hotel by China Airlines. didnt slp tt night, was playing poker with my friends. next mornin go airport. the plane was so small -.- stupid! but nevertheless, it is able to fly. so ok.. reach taiwan le, den take bus go sheng wei. reach sheng wei about 1+? there already so many ppl. and we got our rooms and when to put our bags, but we have no rest. we have to immediately go down to the listenin hall and start lesson. i onli know that i am sleepin all the way. Most of my friends also sleeping.. =) taiwan alot of things to say ar. lazy say.

we went to alot of places, go buy alotof food, take pics.

den soon goin to last day le. friday goin back to singapore. fast hor. hais. den on e plane back to singapore that time, cannot land, air traffic congestion. duh! so plane must fly around singapore for 10mins more -.- after tt land le, after my plane land, behind was a SINGAPORE AIRLINES MEGA TOP. stupid! compare to my plane, it is -_- sianz. so when out of e plane le, when to buy wine. den check out le. take luggages and when home. now at home le. i miss taiwan. i mis the times when we all played with no worries and all of us are together. hai.

jie.. i miss you.. in taiwan i still rmb we ride bicycle, at night somemore. so fun and cold. with onli a few touch light and no supporting light. hais jiE.. i will hao hao join QSN 1. i will listen to you de! jie.. take care!

happy birthday to me!

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to SHAUN SHAUN
happy birthday to me!!!

lame!!! but i like it.. bleh!

until now received 5sms NIA.. BOO! sian! no fun! but IM 17 YRS OLD!! WEE!!!! HOHO!!!!

IM OLDER BY 1 STUPID YEAR!!!!! IM MATURED!!. im mad =)

now need study hard already! O lvl! gambatte!!!! gogogogogo!! bOO!!

whOO!O!O!O!O!O!.. ok lazy type le wahhaz

HELLO!

hoho! ok 3 more days to O lvl science practical. scare? of cus. but what to do. hope god can help me.. ok today had graduation ceremony. leaving school le. so sad!! i miss my rabbit, my friends, my snow white, my nut, my shimin!! >,<. but no choice, sec school life is OVER! today was a memorable moment. feelin to describe it is unbelievable SAD!. its finally over for my sec school life, i dont wanna come back again. so im goin to do my best for O lvl! i can do it! its the last station le. chiong ar!! 15 points! here i come!

ok la now go study abit. den wan sleep le.. tomorrow go school for Science( physics) consulation! 8 - 11. im gonna sleep! but JIA YOU! hoho

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