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When to marina jus now with my ah mei arh! =) so long didnt see her, finally get to see her. cool. when to ritz calton but dare not go in -.-" dont know got what high event goin on, all the managers waiting for some1 to come, scary hahax. den when to marina walk walk, cool, saw a designer shop, so nice the lamps , furniture. =)

goin back there again someday, wanna get some clothes also, IP ZONE@ Marina =)

now study for exam ba, no mood go in relationships again. bored. tired. just study and get on with my life better. =) adios

i dont hate or blame anybody, smile, every1 is equal in my stand. i dont hate ppl even if they say me, what for. we onli have 1 life, live it to the fullest. =) i can forgive everything, can u?

hm..
who is carm and chem? same ppl i suppose? you love to scold ppl hur? why dont search urself before scoldin ppl? does this concern you? i dont think so. if not why kp so much? you dare not reveal urself yet u behind kpkb, scare? i suppose. if u dare to scold, pls dare to admit, scadi cat. yawn.

talk so much yet dare not reveal urself, if u dare not reveal pls dont write, a disgrace to the person who is writing. im suppose to be condemned? yea maybe, but this is because some1 said SUPER many retard things bout me when i didnt do it -.-? reveal urself if u wan to continue to write. no problem revealing urself. unless u are afraid? =) afraid if so , pls do not write, dirtying the place.
and and ohoh, jus to say u guys are busybody. who are you to question about my problems? unless u are esther. busybodies hur. talk all u wan, i dont care anyway. i know what im doin and how life is goin to be for me in the future. im not so like u retards, come nag at the tagboard, yawn..

get a life ppl. =)

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so many ppl scold me, aiya, all ended le la, scold la scold la. wan condemn me go condemn la. now i single le la, happy rite. 6more months onli,REN. Seen my blog? go ahead lor. i am sure i nv contact her already. you said i lie to you, i onli know i met her when we were not together, and when u ask, i said nv meet le, and i realli nv meet. believe or not up to u ba.

ysterday you went to watch movie, i didnt wanna disturb u. my fault. suddenly u didnt reply me, my fault. i cant go out this few weeks, so many problems now. how to go out u tell me, haix. family problems dying hai.

you wanna end it? den end lor, what can i do. everybody's condemnin me.

tagboard so many ppl scold me. long over le still got scolded, scold lor. i dont care,

yawn..

got girl no girl still same. school, home.

6more months, let me pass!

esther, i dont know what the hell i did, i didnt betray u, i love you and i always treated you like a gf. but nvm now, its over. sad? yea, sad. but what to do? everybody is blamin me for everything. den blame lor.

Woo~

OVER LA..

nana whoever u are, u can scold me , i dont mind, but please respect me. thx. tell me ur name before u do anything yea. anyway im fine now already. life's back to normal, pearlin? nahz, she is just another girl whom is in the past already. she is making fun of me now, what for? at least i have esther. =)

And moreever, she deleted me from her blog. so its over i guess. girls are easy to change man. its onli whether you know how to treasure them. i've learnt alot from pearlin. i've grown. =) say me useless or whatever, i dont care. cause u are not me =). the old me is dead.

maybe its thanks to pearlin tt i grow, THANK YOU PEARLIN!. wish u good luck with him, and oh! sry, he said only friends? tt's sad. dont sad ya. there are still many other boys outside =)

u can forget me easily, so can i. wooo~.~

and whoever like to see my blog, see more =) cause this blog is goin to end soon. curse me more , bam me more!. woo! =)

LIFE?

Waiting And Waiting . . .?
I've Waited until im DRY already. haix.
its time to let go already ya.
i must move on with life.
no more hope between us already.
I Give Up.

I rather be single or be with esther already. At least i know there is still some1 that love me.

but now, i guess single is the only choice already. SAD.

i dont know what girls are thinking, when the chance is there to take already, i've took it and suddenly everything goes missing. she is gone, decided to treat me like mirror again. and i dont know what the HELL is happenin to my class. it seems like ppl are condemning me. FUCK what did i do? Why must they care about my problem? WHY.

Why cant they just care about their own problem?

8 more months and im gone from this class, bad experience. haix. im looking forward to get my ass out of here. SHATEC? bad choice already. sob

Yu ting, if you see this, the chance has come and gone, we may have a future in the future, we may not. but you are letting me wait too long and you are not caring or bothering about me at all. sad? i suppose. i dont deserve all this anyway. get on with ur life and go get ur WPL. if possible, stop contactin me already cause i will stop contacting you. i must! you have get on with ur life, i must to!

Life just suck, will you come back to me once again please? T_T

yawn..

Waiting And Waiting . . .

I Think its time i give up ba, you are already waiting for WPL, there is no point for me to wait knowing i have no chance.

haix. its time its time. i know i will regret it, but there is nothing i can do anymore. The hope has come and gone already. you are not letting me have the chance and WPL is more important then me now. good luck with him ba. In the 1st place, i shld not have let you come into my life again when we are over. stupid me hur.

ok thats it..

im sick today, thats stupid. can't go to school
needa see doc . got fever, flu,sore throat. crazy hur. but nvm still, a day to get me cool down and relax. getting back all my sleepiness ^^

tml needa go back school le, it sux. >.<

hai, will i regret what i will be doing? hope i wont haix

yawn..

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Waiting And Waiting . . .

No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life was still you, and everything was how it used be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it doesn't. Although we have been apart for a while, and now have diferent loves in our life, I still can't help wondering how your life is, and when I catch you glancing at me, I can't help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when I see you.

so sad. feelings passing through my brain, surrounding it, making it addicted to you again. I wanna have another future with you ting. But i don't know if that is possible anymore. I really hope it is possible. I've changed just to be with you again. Lao Mu, please give me another chance, wo hui hao hao zhen xi de.

I dont know what you are thinkin now, but i hope you are considering having another fresh with me, i hope that is possible. Asking me to give up is like askin me to take a knife and kill myself. i can't do it cause i love you, i wanna let you see the NEW me.

i hope i can be with you again yuting.

i love you =(

Another Chance Available?

Waiting And Waiting . . .

is there another chance available for us? i hope there is. give me another chance to allow us to be happy together again.

YuTing, i'm happy i can meet you on friday. I'm really happy. Please allow me to be able to make you happy again. I know it's difficult, but please give me another chance. I promise you that you will be happy again. I wanna be there for you, i wanna share your problems. Pearlin, let us get back together again ke yi mahz?

I'm very excited that i can see you on Friday.

I won't be like the olden days already. I've grown up and i know what to do already. I wanna call you *DEAR* again, i wanna hug you again, i wanna be by your side again. If you ever look into this blog, give it a thought.

I know its hard for us to be together, you may not have any feelings for me already, but i don't wanna give up, i'll try to make feelings between us stronger. i just need you to agree to it. i don't want to miss this chance.

God created this chance for me again, i'll try my fullest to treasure it. Ting, please give me another chance, Im sorry for the past, but let me be the one to make you happy again.

I Love you.

clueless

Is it better to be single? guess so hur.

so many problems started to come.
tiring already
let me off pls!

Yuting, i wanna be with you again, give me another chance ya? i'll wait for the day to come. Don't leave me alone T_T. If the chance for us to be together again is ruined, why must god arrange for us to meet on that day? Why is god making it look like there is a chance for us to be together again, but it is actually not? As long as there is still feelings, i'll wait for the day to come. I don't wanna give up and i won't. Unless you tell me you have no more feelings for me, then will i give up. I have no choice. 9 months already, you came back into my life once again, i know there is still a chance, give both of us a chance again?
Possible?
I know it is possible, put hope in it ting.
I've changed, I'm different already, i've corrected all my mistakes. Give me another chance please!
Wo Fang Bu Xia , Ni Ming Bai Mah !!

Esther, i'm sorry. I'm trying to forget her but i just can't. Sorry. I rather be single. i'm sure you will get a better guy out there. You may hate me for doing this but i think this is the best solution for both of us. Sorry.




Well for school life, it is fun, good service skills i've learned. Im aiming to be in the tourism line. Manager- To - Be !! in the tourism industry! =)



YuTing, I'm waiting for you to come back to me once again.

life .. . .

jus get my nafa letter. it is unsuccessful haix. so now, i am left with shatec. i hope i can get in and to be able to pursue my tourism course still. haix..

why must life be so hard for me.. all i wan is jus for me to be able to study.. i dont wanna go in to NS so soon. i still miss the outside world. im still not prepared haix.. WHY MUST GOD MAKE SUCH A HARDTIME FOR ME.. WHY CANT HE JUST LET ME GET INTO MY INTEREST COURSE.. WHY!. im screwed!

all people now are enjoying their life. why? cause their studies are already planned.. all done nicely. but for me? it's screwed.. haix

life is nv easy, but cant it there be at least a light shown to me and tell me the way?

im so lost, im so scare. this is the 1st time im scare .. i have no place to study.. seeing ppl goin in to jc , poly. im so happi for them.

i know i studied hard for my O's. but i still didnt do well.. its badly done .. haix

i regret goin sec5, i shld have gone to ite sooner and i could be well on my way to poly le. haix. i am so stupid!

but there is nothin i can do now. all i can do is to soak in the world of misery for me. haix..

i wanna retake my Os. but i cant do it private. i cant defer off.. it is not allowed. life is so unfair.
haix. why cant the government jus change a little small rule tt it can be defered. im so lost.

any1 help? T_T

why am i born into this world after all. it is onli for us to suffer hardship and not much of happiness. the world changes , so do us. the old dies and the young turns old. what for? all jus for the sake of living. life is full of crapz! do well and be rewarded, do badly and be kicked. life is nv fair!

i hate myself!

31/03/06

the day where shaun is gone from this world.

dadada

Long time no write.. hm.. cause lol.. busy with work la.. so no time la.. hahax. also not much ppl see mahz.. dot .. ok la now no work le can rest le ^^ .results also comin out le.. wth.. so scary.. wan me die ar.. wan me die also not so early mahz
i haven xiang shou life le.. sob wan me leave world so early.. -.-"

lazy write la.. SONG RULES.. SEX IS NOT THE END!!! TECHNO!

taiwan =)

jus came back from taiwan.. 8 days passes so fast. hai. time flies. i miss taiwan, i miss my jies. Especially Wang Qi and Wang hwa. hais. i miss them Sob... T.T

onthe 9th of december, went to taiwan. but plane DELAYED! due to some faulty engines. so not safe to fly. flight changed to next day on the 10th december at 6.30am! so we have a free night at traders hotel by China Airlines. didnt slp tt night, was playing poker with my friends. next mornin go airport. the plane was so small -.- stupid! but nevertheless, it is able to fly. so ok.. reach taiwan le, den take bus go sheng wei. reach sheng wei about 1+? there already so many ppl. and we got our rooms and when to put our bags, but we have no rest. we have to immediately go down to the listenin hall and start lesson. i onli know that i am sleepin all the way. Most of my friends also sleeping.. =) taiwan alot of things to say ar. lazy say.

we went to alot of places, go buy alotof food, take pics.

den soon goin to last day le. friday goin back to singapore. fast hor. hais. den on e plane back to singapore that time, cannot land, air traffic congestion. duh! so plane must fly around singapore for 10mins more -.- after tt land le, after my plane land, behind was a SINGAPORE AIRLINES MEGA TOP. stupid! compare to my plane, it is -_- sianz. so when out of e plane le, when to buy wine. den check out le. take luggages and when home. now at home le. i miss taiwan. i mis the times when we all played with no worries and all of us are together. hai.

jie.. i miss you.. in taiwan i still rmb we ride bicycle, at night somemore. so fun and cold. with onli a few touch light and no supporting light. hais jiE.. i will hao hao join QSN 1. i will listen to you de! jie.. take care!

happy birthday to me!

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to SHAUN SHAUN
happy birthday to me!!!

lame!!! but i like it.. bleh!

until now received 5sms NIA.. BOO! sian! no fun! but IM 17 YRS OLD!! WEE!!!! HOHO!!!!

IM OLDER BY 1 STUPID YEAR!!!!! IM MATURED!!. im mad =)

now need study hard already! O lvl! gambatte!!!! gogogogogo!! bOO!!

whOO!O!O!O!O!O!.. ok lazy type le wahhaz

HELLO!

hoho! ok 3 more days to O lvl science practical. scare? of cus. but what to do. hope god can help me.. ok today had graduation ceremony. leaving school le. so sad!! i miss my rabbit, my friends, my snow white, my nut, my shimin!! >,<. but no choice, sec school life is OVER! today was a memorable moment. feelin to describe it is unbelievable SAD!. its finally over for my sec school life, i dont wanna come back again. so im goin to do my best for O lvl! i can do it! its the last station le. chiong ar!! 15 points! here i come!

ok la now go study abit. den wan sleep le.. tomorrow go school for Science( physics) consulation! 8 - 11. im gonna sleep! but JIA YOU! hoho

adiox.

believe it or not!!

omg... believe it or not lor... its like this. jus now when to kaizhi hse to study. study and study, but im thinkin of her. i miss her>,< but i think now after hearing what kaizhi's fate counting, i think i and her can forget it le ba. tell you guys what it's all abt hor.

ok here goes...

for my love life, 1st is Rachel..
it says there are times when i and her very good, den very bad. den now very good. but there is this problem that has to be over before there is a chance for me and her to be together. but it's only 1% ba. What he suan come out and what rachel said is true.. she said that there is something that have to be over 1st before she can be with me. she say she will give me a chance. i trusted in that. but my dream broke when i heard the after part of my life.. i just hope to be with her.

for my love life, 2nd is Mingsi..
it says i stead with mingsi before. there were up and downs. meaning good times and bad times. very good times and very bad times. but now i cant be with her anymore. cause the last 2 cards is a QUEEN AND KING. meaning she and another boy that is hard to brk. and its true. they like each other but haven stead. now my relationship with mingsi is very very good. in a sense that im her guardian angel as well as korkor. we share everything but the feeling of couple is not there. i understand. so im snow white's guardian angel =)

for my love life, 3rd is Alexis..
worse ever. it says on the outside, we may agree to been buddies. but in the heart, we are not even buddies. that is on her side. steady with her? no hope. give up now and normal friends can still be kept. -_-"

for my love life, 4rd is Shimin..
it says, i and her has been good last time. but now its no good.

i will overcome all this!.. my love life will be better.. no matter what happens! cause i know i do pray with sincerity.. =)

for my studies..
it says, if i continue what im doin now, i can either do very very well in the O lvl's or do very very badly for it. the chance is 50 - 50..

for my life overall..
my life cant be counted as im in the center of libra and scorpio. 23/10. my horoscope is always changin. therefore my fate changes as well. this means whatever im doin, it may come to no use. but to compansate this thing, there will be somethings to overtake it making it a good thing.another thing is that, whatever i am doin, i cant do it 100%, i will stop at 50%. and either this means that i have completed this obstacle or all my efforts have come to waste.

thats abt it ba..

amazing? but what the thing says IT's 90% TRUE!. Im Kinda depressed, but getting on with life is still my choice. pray well and study hard! gambatte SHAUN!. and finally...

I MISS YOU RACHEL!!!! i wan fate to change and let us be together even for jus a short while, im happy.!

hey! ok i met my sista, Angela at lot 1 wor! on sat afternoon. she called me and i was SHOCK. such a chio gal calling me, i thought who.den i turn saw SIRU. nice name hur? hahaz. she look so pretty wor, or is it i too long didnt see you already sis? hahaz. but i was kinda blur at tt time so paiseh ar. hahaz. she say my frens SHUAI wor, den i not shuai la. wa piang. biased! -.- kabISH!..

hm.. ok now its 12.41AM.. dont know why cant sleep le.. bought a birthday present for MINGSI.. its so cute, makes me wanna laugh when ever i see it. rachel, i am intendin to get 1 for you, i miss you! =) 2more weeks ya! you promised me de hur, dont back out hor! or not i -_- le la.. sianz.. lolx.. O lvl comin le, im still slackin wahaha. kinda screwed up Prelim 2 as well.. 37 points, where the hell can i go hais.. die le die le..

DIE LE!!! go nowhere

hahaz.. anyway, any1 can buy for me CK's Perfume, the black bottle 1.. i kinda sticked to that smell already, its TOO NICE! im addicted! keke.. now the cute monkey is sitting beside me staring at me.. so cute >,< big head with small body. lolx.. next time get 1 for you my dear rachel... =0
ok la.. go sleep le la.. sianz.. Fate pls be the judge between me and her, i wanna be with her!!!

sign off,
12.47

=)

today is a happi day for me!. cause i finally met my PRI SCH buddy!. lol after abt 3mths of none meeting, we met today to study!. she was like teaching me chemistry -.- so malu! >,<. seeing her again makes me so happi, dont know why hahaz. =X

Alexis, go out study again sometime ya!. teach me chem again! you teach me, i can learn sia. other ppl teach, cannot go in de.. u pro sial buddy!! hahaz. u wearing school uniform seems very cute lolx.. hm.. miss ya!..

ok here is the song I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory. Nice song introduced by my buddy!. =)

lyrics:
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
when they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
you didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I never cared how I dressed before
but I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
and my clothes never fit right
I can't wait til we meet again
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Framed pictures start to be put on the walls
Constant visits while im out on the road
It's hard to leave sometimes
but you know where I lay my head at night
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

ok.. now time to zhao already. wan to slp liao. niteXX

O.o!

hoho!. how long nv write le hurhur. hm.. prelim 2 just over, its freakin lame. the paper is like lower then o lvl standard? but i will still fail as usual. hahaz. cause im a retard who is lazy to study. but when im doin the questions, i wasnt clueless ok! i onli dont know if my idiotic answer is correct or not. wish me luck in that hahaz.!

O lvl in 1 mth time, wahaha, still haven prepare. like nthin to study le. how ar. im like study everything already. -_- stupid O lvl.. hm.. now gonna go bath la. later goin wedding dinner. so many of my friends all nv go. all pangseh me, good sial they.. idiotic... ok la.. ciaoz.

I am waiting for you to give me a chance, pls give me a chance, i've been waiting for a very long time already. waiting waiting waiting waiting. wonder if you will ever find out about this blog of my. wahahahz. fate fate fate.... good luck to me ba!...

goin to bath! just came back from soccer. woot! im a left winger! accuracy 100% strike! whaah....

ciaoz/

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hello!. today didnt go to school. WHY? lazy. no mood for school. so when out to fren's hse. shle be goin there at 11am, but i woke up at 12.30pm-.- so when there at 3pm. wanna study, but instead, play com there. till 7pm. go to teck whye mac study till 10pm. cool izint it. hahaz

got to know 1 gal. her name is AIN. she is ^.^ but she is a malay -_-. duh. haha so make frens la. more frens e merrier rite. =D

my stupid sore eyes still there, but getting better le. now left abit, STILL MUST GO SCHOOL!. bored -.-" i still misses her. T.T if there is a chance again, i wanna be with her. sob!! god pls give me another chance to make up for my past mistakes. i cannot forget her. thats miserable -_0
God, if u wan me and her to end, PLS let me forget her, if not DONT make me and her end will ya! T.T

Its hurting yet miserable... human beings duh................................

ok. im gonna slp. im already half dead. ciaoz