Just Wanna Be With You

Waiting And Waiting . . . I can see you are getting along with your life well. that's good to see. I don't know if you and him already together and don't wanna tell us, but i hope you will think it clearly. You've changed, i don't know if i've changed, i can't say myself, you have to see it yourself.

No matter what happens, if you need a shoulder or a lending ear to talk to, you can come and find me, i'm fine with it, after all, you may change, but deep inside, you don't change, i still know what you likes and what you don't. And nice flowers he sent you. Better then my for some reasons. I know i can't ask anything now, But seeing you happy, i'm should be happy too.

Anyway, happy 18th birthday on 5nov....

I'm waiting for another chance, be it now or in he future, i know for once, i'm with you.... i love you..

Memories doesn't fade

I guess, i'm not ready to blog and i'm still tryin to accept the fact that you are gone from me, from my life, i have to move on no matter how hard it is. all the things we had gone through together. the thick and thin of matters. have you forgetten all about it? how i rush down to get you slippers althought i've just slept for 3hours. haiis, it hurts to know that we have end. 1 year passes by so fast. i cherished you, but i guess our fate wasn't meant to be.

Memories last forever, thats all i can say....



it hurts.....

The World of Illusions

Hmm, had fun during the last 2 days, so i'll split it up.. 27/09/08 Went to sentosa with dear, ray, elson, jiajun. We met charmine there as charmine was with her friends. was kinda a happy trip there. we reached vivo city and went to see the SAFARI. saw many dogs, so cute lar !! then went to take the sentosa express into sentosa, me and dear no need pay cause got the islander's card. after that went to sit the sentosa luge, we bought the buy 2 get 1 free ticket. so we can sit 3 times. after that we went to sit the sky ride up and take the luge down. was fun as everybody was runnin like they were F1, except no licence that kind of F1. then after the luge ride, we went to find charmine. Charmine also very funny, mix up the place then we cant find her. HOT! then we walkwalk and we found her, the sand was so SOSO hot and we keep runnin around. changed and went into the water, was so salty went we accidently drank some of it. WOW free salt, eeks! then we went to play luge again, this time also no licence. after that went to vivo to eat. walkwalkwalk and we found MUSSELICIOUS restaurant. not very expensive, but very CHEAP! about 20 per person. the food was, okok nia-.-" then after that walk walk around. and go HOME! took the MRT home , it's LONG T_T here are the pics... enjoy!! =) 28/09/08 Went to Watch f1 with dear and gang. met at 5pm at city hall mrt, already SO many people, then we slowly walk to marina center where we find see if got space to watch the match. many people and not much spaces so we went to a restaurant to eat and watch, the restaurant name is PARISS international seafood buffet restaurant. it's $45BUCKS per person. 7 of us went and it's like WOW so expensive, but it's worth it, great food and nice veiw of the F1. this is my 2nd time i go to the restaurant. the food is nice, many choices and varieties to choose. When the match start everybody was like so kan jiong all rush to the window. then a few of us went to the roof top to watch, it's SO fun lar, the noise is So loud and the atmosphere is amazing. next year, we all plan to buy tickets and go and watch it.! run around the rooftop to find nice places to watch, and i managed to find some, took some video of the cars zooming pass us and it's so loud!




thats all.. for now .=)

happy anniversary..

today is our 1year and 2 months anniversary. But dear is in Malaysia-.- and she has forgotten about it, but i'm okay with it. =) eeler they all plan to go out today, but i'm already meeting my cousin so i cant go, they are goin to KATONG shopping center. wa lao, so far lar that 1, then son also dont know wanna go anot, lol he complain far then he alone go lol! all dont go lar, next time then go hahas!

And, Dear, i wish that, if he ask about our relationship, you wont tell him anything that is related to us only, i dont wan him to know so much about our relationship. can? it's our relationship, he no need to ask that much about it. he wanna find the weakness in me. lol..

My 1st CAR! (RENT) =X

hmm, rented a car 2days ago, KIA PICANTO, no choice cause too late then rent, no other choices, so just rent that car to try it out, went rounding with buddies then go home sleep, woke up at 7am to fetch eileen to school, was kinda tired but looking at her i feel happy le. Then after drivin her to school, i go home and sleep, lucky!!. Cause when i leaving house in the morning, the sky is super dark, seems like goin to have a thunderstorm, but luckly, it didn't rain and the sky even turn bright =.=" Then whent i reach home, it started to rain heavily, SUPER MAN! tried to slept when i came home, but can't sleep-.-" so do nothing around and waited for son and eileen to come to panjang then i go fetch them to eileen's house. Waited for ray to wake up, he go try to car, lol starting was like so unstable, then slowly it became normal. Then went he tried to go up the carpark, the car stalled-.-" and it rolled backwards, everybody was like SUPER scare. hahas! then i go drive his dad's car out and we drive to return the picanto. Was like racing during the trip there, hahas, those 2 idiots ray and elson, behind us keep jumping around in other car, lol

After returning the car, we send elson home and we went home to eat dinner. =)

Here's a picture of my 1st CAR( jialat model) -.-!!







Just now went to meet Jiajun and Eeler to go and find Son to celebrate his belated birthday lol. While goin there, at bukit batok, ray was driving at 90km/hr, and it was a 70km/hr road, then we ran pass a speed camera. it flashed at us, but i don't know if it's flashing at us or the car beside us, cause there is another car running as well. so we were worried. hahas, Then reached Son's cousin house, had a plan with his cousin but his cousin was not at home, so we asked his brother to open the door and we have a cake, so we surprize him! He was not wearing any shirt at that time and he was like so shy hahas! Then after that we went to bedok to eat. Then just now drive the car back as ray was kinda tired, was not driving fast, just normal speed, kinda ZAI liao! hahas okay time to sleep...

here care some pictures.






tata! =)

Pride

i lay down my pride.

Boring ACCOUNTING CLASS!

Today is the start of my accounting class in MDIS again. Remoduled* but the class is so boring lar. The lecturer is even worse, talk like he is dying like that, very boring. Class alot Singaporeans then all like ah beng ah lian like that, so sian.

Went out of house at 12.45pm, then was playing PSP, reach school just nice 1.55pm, already kinda alot ppl in class. so went in and it feels WEIRD, REALLY WEIRD, like i am in another world, everybody seems so strange to me, hahas maybe because it's a new class, but i doubt i will ever get to know them, cause i'm only goin for 1 lesson per week. After class went to meet Eileen at Bukit Panjang Plaza, just to buy KFC and go home eat-.-" Went for dinner with her family just now, but i not hungry, so didn't eat. then after that, ray and his friends goin driving around, so i follow them, so they can fetch me home only, cheers*! hahas,

Wanna rent a car, but most of it is all min. 2 years experience then they will rent to you, ANYBODY, that view my blog, can help me look out for renting cars? PLEASE! =)

A Day Where There Is No Sunlight..

okay, just a random post. long time since i post anyway. hahas, just came back from desaru yesterday with eileen and her family. Was kinda bored there but it's still fun. see the adults play mahjong and eating seafood. At night, the wind was absolutely fantasic, was like blowing me off, it's FUN! On the way home, we went to ostrich farm, fruit farm and temple. i and ray was like sitting in our dream car, HONDA CIVIC V-TEC 1.8 LIT sport! =) lol, but i feel the turbo was not very good. not much feel at all. hahas, the person bought for 80+k i think and he says he wanna change car soon. How i wish he can sell me his car. . . then came back to Singapore, TUAS keep JAM JAM JAM, then got alot cars keep cutting into our lane, was very pissed. Cause got this FAT LADY, dont know how to drive car, keep letting other ppl cut in to the lane, then the lane not moving -.-"!! Then dad also came back from Genting with my sister and my aunties, those girls, shopping and bought alot of things, whole bag FULL,that was SO AH SOH LAR! then buy 2watch and a shirt for me only, KIAM SIAP!

Suddenly, today i felt i miss the old times, when eileen was working at sha villa, i feel those times were the best time of all. Now it doesn' seems very right. Last time when she working, i would wait for her outside, come fetch her in the morning then go have breakfast together, i miss those times, she seems very lovely at that time. I MISS IT!

And it' so fast, goin to 1year 2months already. it's tough for us during this time, but we somehow managed to pass through it. Now she schooling, i working + schooling, not much time to be as lovely as last time le, it's sad but everything will pass someday right, it's all in the memory already, cherish what we have now and enjoy our time together, possible my dear?

Eileen wanna get the IPHONE, it's expensive, i wanna buy for her, but i don't have the capital to but it now, i see what i can do. . .
Hope i'm able to get it for your 18th birthday, for now, use your SAMSUNG 1st hor, cheers.

ciaoz, going to school tomorrow.

Once A Day Passed

hi im back! hmm, lets get straight to the point ba, sat was dear's didi 1st month anniversay, i mean baby o, then her cousins come down from malaysia, so i went to visit them and the baby, was kinda hot cause many ppl. after everything i went home.

next day dear they all go out, car not enough place so i cannot go, so stay at home whole afternoon until evenin go swimmin with brothers. then at night go meet dear they all for go out play, her brother drive. kinda shock lar but anyway still okay. then monday they go chinatown, i dont feel like goin so nv go los, then she say i go no car dont want to go, -.- say until liek that, it hurts los. . . .

today, they go sentosa, nv tell me, i packed everything then bring go driving, after drivin called her, but she say she at sentosa, then say last min go de, then i was like, you all go sentosa also never let me know that you are goin, how do i feel? i feel very upset about it los. it's like you all go but dont wan me along can, jus tell me where you goin, i mornin wake up still sms you, but no reply. haiis..

HI!!!

hmm, long time since i post, was too lazy to post actually. don't really know what happen to dear now, suddenly she is like a changed person. so weird, haiis, i don't wish to say much, no mood, just no mood. since you want me not to ask so many things, i'll try to stop it. since this is the way you want.. you want..

BAD BAD BAD DAY!

today is a damn bad day, had a very very very bad cry today. cause . . . suddenly i have a feeling i'm going to lose dear already

yst is O lvl results, dear's brother got 28 for his o level then he is sad lar. then came home his father keep like scolding him, then suddenly scold everybody like that, then dear came in to the room and cry, the situation not very nice lar. then dear cry finish liao, we go down eat mac, then came home dear complain tired, then head pain, then say alot of those WANT TO DIE THINGS! it seems so real lar, make me damn sad lar, it's like, i'm going to lose her liao los. then her brother situation i also in it los, it's been 2 years. i still can rmb, i am even worse los, ITE ALSO CANNOT GO ARH! damn it! i was at the lowest of my life lar!

dear, i hope i won't ever lose you, 80k right, no problem, i sure will make enough to MARRY YOU! =) after NS arh ! CHIONG ARH! give u good life i promise! and dont ever say those kind of lousy words again please. it hurts

i love you dear.

STRESS!

hmm, at home now, goin fetch dear soon liao, just now came back then heard ah gong was like not feeling well. was kinda worried for him, then my ah ma came up with my auntie only. then monday exams liao. friday last day of schoo ler, was kinda sad thatschool is goin to end, but still happy that it ended-.-" STRESS of exams, if i fail how how how .T_T

dear was angry yst then suddenly a not so nice question pop out again. don't wanna hear it anymore can? how can we be stable if all this things keep happenin dear. 2 more months ++ only then can go holiday ler, jia you ba! i wanna go holiday with you de! with kyle they all then drink chrivas until they DIE! DIE DIE! hahahs!

no barcardi for you anymore! RAWR!

okay ciao, i coming liao , BB LOVES

Happy 6th month

Happy 6th month!

i'm happy that we have come this far, but the pic on ur blogs say alot of things ler. from strangers to friends, from friends to more then friends, then practically back to strangers, it all happens so fast. <--- alot meaning ler!

hope it doesnt refer to anything, or else i GG! chery QQ!

alright, project time, MUGGING! ADIOS

love youdear

erm..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY! erm, that was yesterday, so BELATED! =D
but she is angry with me, dont know why. bought her tiramisu cake with wine in it she also angry, sad!

then dear says she is disappointed in me =(

maybe i guess so, cause i keep making empty promises. guess im too tired ler ba, but i dont wanna disappoint her so i say yes los, haiis Sorry dear. it won't happen ler. 2 more weeks and i am sure i can pei u liao. i wont make empty promises again.

got something for dear this sunday, but she wan STEAK! HOW TO DO!!-.-"

dont wanna say much, later tag hang again.

i wont disappoint you.

1 more day to go

freezing cold night

it's kinda FREEZING now alright! lazy to type thos events that happened the past few days, but overall, i guess i'm happy with everything =o

hmm, alright, gonna sleep soon, later still have to go fetch dear -.-"

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Nights!

12 more days